How Living With HIV Affect Me As A Single Mother? Hello everyone, I hope you are well. n today’s post, I will be sharing a reflection on how living with HIV affect me as a single mother. Recently, I wrote about my journey of living with HIV. I appreciate all the support from those posts, such as Being Pregnant With HIV. Thank you so much.
How Living With HIV Affect Me As A Single Mother?
As a mother in general, you worry about Children. You would want to do anything for them and to protect them. You want to care for them, socialise with them and love them. And you will become physically and emotionally attached to your child – that’s the bond between the mother and her children.
When you are told that you have a virus that has no cure, naturally, you will start to panic. You start worrying about what happens now and what happens next. You’ll start asking all the ‘What if questions in the world and have doubts about raising your child or how your child will cope without you?
Motherhood
Being a single mother has been a challenging journey, but it is really up to you as a mum to decide whether or not you will fight for your child and try with a plan to live a healthy, fulfilled lifestyle.
For me, my daughter was my number one priority. There were times I felt depressed, confused and angry. Living with HIV is a very lonely world. My biggest worry was that my child would be taken away if I didn’t step up. My bond with my daughter grew more substantial, and I felt very protective of her to the point where I wouldn’t let anyone carry her.
However, as time passed, I think my family built trust in me that I could take care of my daughter alone. I also grew my confidence and belief that I could do this. My daughter became my best friend, and I decided to fight for her all day and for the rest of my Life.
I think I have been doing that. She has grown into a lovely, intelligent little girl. She’s only 5, but so much has happened within the last five years, and she’s been nothing but strong.
Living Life To The Full
I think having HIV has made me a better mum than I could have imagined. It has kept me grounded and focused in Life. Dealing with both HIV and my daughter at the same time has been an exhausting journey. It takes a lot of energy to look after a child, build a home all by yourself, and take care of yourself because you have a virus that has no cure.
The earlier you deal with your emotions about the virus, the better for you. You will be living with the virus, and you are the one who will be facing Life with it.
I spent a whole year crying my eyes out just because it was what I needed at the time. Everything was overwhelming, and I had to let go of the pain I was feeling. However, I feel very proud of my achievements in the last six years. The Future is looking bright, and I am ready to take it on.
I hope you enjoyed that.
Talk soon.
