I am letting life happen. Hey everyone, I hope you are well. In today’s post, I will be sharing another life update -Letting life happen. In my recent post, Won’t let go, Life Update, I spoke about my views on everything that is happening worldwide. I also talked about starting a new life in Nigeria. Well, guess what? There’s another update, and sh*t got real.
Letting Life Happen
I lost my job last week. The company was getting business, so they had to let me go. It’s a weird feeling to be ‘fired’. I have never been ‘fired’ before. Well, I have only had two employments in my entire life. My first job was in a grocery store – Sainsbury’s. I worked as a checkout operator Assistant for five years in total. And then my Receptionist position at a Law Firm. I was very excited when I got the job. I felt, finally, after all the hard work and rejects after rejects. Everything is coming together.
It just breaks my heart that I spent so many years, literally, all my school years, from the age of 16 years old to 29 years old, to get a job in an office environment. Only to work with them for seven months because of the Lockdown. It’s heartbreaking. Maybe this is God’s way of telling me something.
Now I am moving away to start a new life in Nigeria.
How am I feeling?
Honestly, as scary as I am about deciding to relocate, I feel this is the best decision and the right time for a fresh start. Imagine if I hadn’t had plans to relocate? I will be going back to square one and starting all over again. Looking at my life in the U.K, I feel sad. I feel like my life in the U.K. has been a waste. The U.K. has been a battlefield for me. I have dealt with racism, disability discrimination, sexual abuse, bullying at school and work, self-identity struggle and family drama.
It’s a relief feeling, to be honest. Imagine the strength and trauma I have been going through since I was 9? All because of the colour of my skin. I was refused support from welfare, betrayed by my so-called friends, and let down by my family. I was fighting through all of it in silence. It was like I was invisible, fighting hard to stay alive.
The sad thing is that it’s still happening every day. And no matter what I do, where I go or how far I feel I have come or achieved in my life, the past always follows. I have been living in the U.K. since I was nine years old, I turned 30 this year, and I want to spend the rest of my Life – Living. No more battles based on things that I can’t control.
Letting Life Happen
What great rewards we can receive when we let life guide us on our path to purpose.
Moments and situations seem to flow with a distinct pattern and insight without the force of our own hands what powerful occurrences take place when we stop to allow them to. It is the wave we ride, not go against.
Allowing life to happen doesn’t mean we are to take no action. The opposite is said to be true. There is always footwork to be done. We have to meet life halfway. The effort you put into yourself and the world around you is what will essentially be returned to you.
We have to recognize opportunity, and then if it fits our path, we can work to obtain it.
Allowing Life to Unfold
Allowing life to unfold means we are creating adequate space for life to breathe on its terms.
Soon we discover that the appropriate people surround us at the right times. People, places, and things become almost precisely placed in our lives, virtually like actors and props in a play. We can embrace these moments and people and take the lessons we have learned with us.
When we let life happen, we admit to ourselves that there is a universal force surrounding us and our capabilities. Every move we make is part of the intricate makeup of our environment, emphasizing how important each of us truly is.
Natural Movement of Life
We can listen to this natural movement of life or turn a deaf ear and proceed into blindness, never seeking what we intended. It is up to us to observe and participate in the orchestrated sequences around us.
Pay attention to life’s directions at work. We may not have been born with maps in our hands, but we were born with an intuitive sense of direction. It’s up to us to take the time to look at the world around us, understand the options before us, and pay attention to where we feel we truly belong.
The Way Forward
Like I always say – Life is a journey. It’s like going through a maze of obstacles, except you come out of it dead. I mean, even the elderly goes face discrimination and abuse too. Do I feel defeated? The simple is ‘No’. It’s me against the world; I am a survivor, not a victim.
I am now a proud African Black woman and a mother. I am on a mission to ensure my daughter, my future children, and my future husband do not experience half of any negativity I have experienced from society. As much as I want to make a list of goals I want to achieve in my time in Nigeria, I have to be mature about it. Here are a few purposes:
- Start A Business
- Start a family.
Look out for more in an upcoming post.
After Covid-19, we can’t tell what the future holds anymore, but we can continue to plan, work hard and care for each other. I would also say that I acknowledge how lucky I am to have an opportunity to start fresh in a new lifestyle, and I am very grateful.
By the way, guys, Sasha-Ann and I were featured in an article in our local Newspaper, ‘Evening Express’ over the weekend. Check it out here.
I hope you enjoyed that.