My Pregnancy Journey. Hey guys, in this post I am going to share my pregnancy journey with my daughter Sasha-Ann. My pregnancy was not planned and not expected at all. I was in a relationship but the relationship ended when I was 12 weeks pregnant. I was emotionally drained after the break up because I thought we could make it work. The idea of bringing up a child all alone was never something I planned for my future. However, I decided to keep the pregnancy with support from my family.
My Pregnancy Journey
There was no morning sickness, sometimes I would take another pregnancy test just check because my stress level was high, I got worried that I might have miscarried. I was crying most of the time, couldn’t sleep or eat. I was in a really low and dark place. When I was working, before my maternity leave, my colleagues and customers had noticed that I was not my normal, cheerful self, the manager tried to talk to me and reassured me that everything was going to be okay.
I was 23 years old and my life was about to change. I had heard stories of what single mothers go through, especially the younger ones. Everyone looks down on you ( even I looked down on them too), having no money or support, some of them homeless and become addicts and have their kids taken away from them.
Although I had support from my family, I was still very lonely. No one to talk to (not really). My mum tried to help build my confidence but it just wasn’t enough. I was not a happy person at all. You can have your family, your friends to support you and entertain you just to get your mind off things, but if your not happy within inside of you, you can not feel the love that you have around you.
I was a bit hesitant about getting a social worker because I actually thought they will judge my disabilities and take my daughter away from me. How wrong was I? I don’t know about others but the Social worker I had was an Angel. She listened, she understood, she explained, and she made everything seems so easy. I was very lucky to have her. She believed in me and saw my strength and told me that I can still achieve my dreams. This was just the start. I told I did not want to be a stay-at-home mother. I wanted to get a good job that can provide for my daughter and myself.
Yes, I did have lots off negative thoughts but as my bump grew, things got clearer and easier as I began to fall in love with my baby. Especially she kicked and I felt her move. That feeling is Amazing! It was a sign that she knows what’s going on my mind but she’s telling me, ‘Don’t worry mummy, everything will be just fine.’
My Pregnancy Journey: A Bit Of Advice
‘Do not listen to what other people say about pregnancy, not your mum, favourite aunt or best friend. Take some advice but the rest have to be your own decision.’