The End of An Era. Hey everyone. I hope you are all well. Well, It’s The End of An Era for me. Based on my previous post – College or Work? Decision Time, where I spoke about deciding whether to continue with education with no stable support or quit school and get a job. If you haven’t read that post yet, please do, so you can understand more about what this post is about.
The End Of An Era
I have spoken to my parents about the whole dilemma that I am facing. They advised that I should continue with my education. I agree it’s a good idea. But there are other things to think about. I need support. I need finance and childcare support. You’re asking me to go on to a higher level. I need to eat, and a warm house. And these things cost money. I could get a loan, but a debt of £’000 is not something I want to get myself into. I wouldn’t cope with it all – the workload and things being a whole mess at home simultaneously, especially with lack of support.
So I sat down and had a thought about everything. I honestly feel devasted, but I chose to not continue with Education, at least not now. The reason for that is because I have no robust support system. By that, I mean childcare support, finance, as well as good health. It is very heartbreaking, but I believe I have done all my best in my Education. I have had a rollercoaster journey pursuing Education, and Boy! it was a ride. I started going to college way back in 2006. I know, you must be thinking, Sonia, what in the hell happened? Girl, Where do I start?
So what now? Well, I am still in the process of coming up with a plan. I need to get a part-time job. Blogging is great, but because I am still relatively new to blogging, it could take a long time to start making money from the industry. I also have an idea of getting into an apprenticeship, that way, I am not only working and learning, but I can do it around Sasha-Ann.
While I try to develop a plan, I will be spending a lot of ‘me time, especially when my daughter starts going to school. I will have a lot of time during the day on my hands to burn. Whatever I get up to, I will post a life update on the blog. I am talking about reinventing myself. Eating healthy, going to the gym, brunch with some friends, saving money, getting my social life back. I have been very focused on my education because I wanted a promising life/future for my daughter and me. Now I want to get my life back, and we take things there pretty much.
How Do I Feel?
I feel sad about how things are going for me. But I believe God has a plan for everyone. We all have to learn to accept things happens for a reason. I know for sure that I made the right decision to come to college. I have seen so much growth in my daughter and myself. One thing I have now learned from all this, ‘If it’s not for you, It’s not for you. Accept it and move on.’ When you want something, you would like to get it, by all means, and there is nothing wrong with that.
However, we also have to let go at some point. So take a sit back and breathe and try to figure out why things are not working for you and see if you can change it. If you can, great. If you can’t, then move on. Regardless of everything that has happened, I know I have done myself and my daughter proud. In the future, I can look back and say I did my best.
I hope you enjoyed this post.
I’m sorry you’re in a tough place where you’re feeling sad about how life is going! I’ve been feeling that way a lot lately and it can be difficult to find the silver lining but you’re doing a great job! I hope you’re enjoying the extra time you have and spending it on all the things you’ve been missing out on. You’re absolutely right, we all have a plan, even if it doesn’t always make sense at first.
You’ve considered all your options and have made the decision that you think is best for you and your daughter. I am sure that you will find the perfect job. And, you never know, you may go back to education someday.
School is not always required for success. You need to do what is right for you at this time. Thanks for sharing your journey. Good luck!
Life is complicated and tricky if it doesn’t goes well and as per plan. But believe me Universe has some plan for each one of us. Have faith in your self and your abilities , strength. You will see a ray of hope to move in a right direction. And you have already taken steps in right direction.
Sonia, it’s a brave thing to make a choice that moves you into the unknown. I’ve discovered many times a definite choice opens doors that never would have opened otherwise. Congrats on your clarity.
Thalia - vetmomlife
Sonia, thank you for sharing such a personal journey! I know it can be disappointing when life doesn’t go as planned, but I agree God still has a good plan- none of this is a surprise to him. Please take a peek at my blog I hope it can encourage you on your journey!
Life can be tricky in all it’s messiness but always remember the challenges are only temporary and often weird learning experiences we didn’t know we needed. Doing your best is all you can ever do, well done!